I won NaNoWriMo 2019! And then I lost half my work. The app I was using to write my novel in was unable to save my work on the cloud. I lost roughly 25,000 words. Ginny and I have deduced that I am in the stage of grief known as denial. I haven't experienced feelings of sadness or anger. I have been unable to return to the novel, however, to rewrite it or even write notes so I will remember it. I have lost work in this novel before when my old computer died years ago. The blue screen of death, they call it. If you're a Windows user, you may be familiar with the blue screen of death. It took away roughly 28,000 words that time. I was devestated. I tries to save the computer, but it was a lost cause. I hung on to it for years as if one day I could somehow recover my work from it. I finally returned to that novel again in 2019 and wrote 50,000 words in November only to lose it again. My win hardly feels like a win. It feels worthless and empty. I hate to complain, but seriously, this is so unfair. I want to return to my novel. Tick Tock is my favorite novel. I want to recover the work I lost before I forget what I wrote. I want to continue the story. But I am afraid that when I do return to it, the sadness and anger and frustration at my lose will strike. I don't want to he upset. So it sits, waiting for me to return and it will likely wait for months or years just like last time.
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Lizzie Rise
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January 2020
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